Low

There’s a feeling. Of something heavy weighing you down. Of a thick suffocating cloud that refuses to allow any light. You know you’ve done something wrong. Idiotic, actually. The kind you never thought you would do, or at least, hoped you wouldn’t, though in all fairness, you probably never even considered the possibility of the situation before. You’re disappointed, angry, upset, and to top it off, dreading making the call telling your dad what you did. Knowing he’s going to be all of the above, and more so. It doesn’t matter if you’re 18 years old and have missed an exam because you saw the wrong schedule, or if you’re 25 and have left a ridiculously expensive phone in a cab while roaming around in a different city by yourself. In both situations, you can’t help but going over the past, second by second, thinking of every little thing that you could have done differently, but didn’t. Or looking towards the future, wondering if there’s the slightest chance that you might luck out, and your mistake might be made up for. Hell, the rational side of you knows it’s not the gravest of situations – in hindsight, it might even make a good story to tell. But in this moment, when all you have is the heaviness and the thick clouds, the only thing that sounds even remotely tempting is burying your head into a pillow and hoping to wake up to a better scenario.