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Sunday, January 24, 2021

Here's to the rebels

Here's to the rebels
The ones that never really fit
The ones who were "not normal"
Your beings chipped away, bit by bit

The ones who were constantly criticized
For daring to be different
For trying to be who you were
Regardless of the latest trend

The ones who always felt alone
Even when surrounded by a crowd
The ones who felt unheard
Even as you were screaming out loud

It's not an easy path you've chosen
It's going to be a long, lonely road
All you can really do though
Is follow your heart, mind and soul

If you're lucky, maybe you'll meet
A few other rebels along the way
The ones who look at you and smile
And find you perfectly okay

A bunch of strange, quirky misfits
Not so different from who you are
Do lean on them and recharge
Because the destination ahead is far

Some of them might walk alongside
And share the burden for a while
But ultimately this journey is just yours
Walking alone, wearing a frown or a smile

I know the road isn't easy
And often, you want to turn around
To give in to all the pressure
And surrender without a sound

But before you drop from exhaustion
And give up on all that you wish
Know that your struggle is important
And here me as I say this

With every painful step of yours
You pave a new path today
So that someday, another rebel
Might find before them an easier way.

Shades of Life: Grey Clouds


I love my colours
Soft, bright, black, white
Each one carrying its own touch
But there's something about grey
That draws me in
Like the sight of the dark clouds
Rolling in before the rain
Sometimes I like to stand there
Eyes closed
Arms wide open
Feeling the soothing wind
Soaking in the terrifying storms
Breathing in all the grey
Sometimes lighter, calmer
Sometimes darker, angrier
Ever changing
A shade for every mood
And in that moment
Staring at the rumbling clouds
I feel a connection
Like we understand one another
The layers
The shades
The complexities
Of every single moment that has made us
A mix of emotions
A mix of traits
Carrying wonder, joy
Carrying pain, suffering
All of it
Stuffed in one package
Trying to make sense of the world
While still not able to make sense of ourselves
And to know us
You have to peel the layers
See the fear with the hope
Feel the terror with the joy
Knowing
That you may never really be able to pin us down
Because we never stay still
We’re ever changing
Our grey from yesterday
Might be different from the grey of tomorrow
And maybe that's scary
Maybe that's confusing
But maybe that's who we are.

Shades of Life: Black Night


I don’t do it often
Though I wish I did:
Stare up at the night sky
At the dark blanket
Enveloping us all
There’s a familiarity in it
It's always there
No matter what
And unlike everything else
The shades are few
Just a constant black
Staring back at you
Unchanging
Uncaring
Or so it seems
Because as you stare at the darkness
As the noise dies out
And silence is all you have
Something lets go
You whisper secrets to it
Secrets buried deep inside
And as the emotions come out
As the tears roll out
It takes them all in
Protecting you with its darkness
Wrapping its arms around you
Helping those tears float away
To join the many others
Already buried within it
The murmured secrets
The whispered tales
Of forgotten moments
Of souls you never met
From around the universe
All guarded by the night
Reminding you
Of an endless abyss
Of the vastness of it all
And that you
Are just a small part of it
But as you look at that black night
Your tears now dried up
It tells you silently
That it doesn’t matter
How big the world is
How complex life is
How many souls it embraces
Because the ultimate secret
The only one you need to remember
The only one you need to hear
Is that in this moment
You, matter.

Shades of Life: Brown Land



Some look at it
And move on their gaze
What is it, after all
Drab
Dull
Dry
Having neither the vibrancy of green trees
Nor the majesticity of blue water
It’s just brown land
An overlooked shade
Muddy
Boring
Stale
But I’ve come to learn
That there’s power
In the underdog
In the one nobody roots for
And as I continue to gaze
At vast expanses of sand
At towering, bare mountains
At bare, brown land
Spreading
As far as the eyes can see
I feel humbled
At the power it radiates
It has stood the test of time
Like nothing else in this world
Aging
Ever so slowly
Ever so consistently
No matter the changes around
Needing nothing
Enduring everything
Like that wise old man
Shunned by the younger crowd
Yet still standing proud
Not caring what others think
Not competing for a crown
Whispering
Secrets of old
Secrets of life
Telling you
That a moment of surrender
Is all you need
To appreciate beauty
Where none is seen.

Sunday, January 17, 2021

Shades of Life: Orange Sun

It’s like magic
The colours painted across the sky
As the sun rises
As the sun sets
That gleam of orange
Piercing through the backdrop
Hitting your core
Forcing you
To stop everything
To take a break
From your hectic daily life
And pause
Just pause
Breathe
Soak this moment in
Before it disappears
And open your eyes
To the wonder
To the magic
That is life
Inspiring you
With its raw beauty
As colours begin to merge
As though putting on a show
For you
Just you
You can feel the rays hitting you
Feel them in every particle in your being
Energizing you
Healing you
Reminding you
That life is beautiful
If only you paused to look.





Thursday, January 14, 2021

Shades of Life: Green Nature

There's a shade of green I love
Bright
Fresh
Vibrant
Teeming with life
Like the one after the rains
Like life itself
Nature waking up
Yawning
Stretching
Ready
For the bustling day ahead
Filled with energy
And contagious smiles
Like that first sip of coffee
Like waking up with a kiss
It’s that green of life
Telling you
That you're here
You're alive
To do what you want
To seize the moment
To feel the zest
To live it in
Breathe it in
Do the thing you love
Take that risk
Bask in the freshness
Because in this moment
With that vibrancy coursing through you
Nothing can stop you.




Tuesday, January 12, 2021

Shades of Life: Blue Sea


Calm
That’s what I feel
Every time I look at the sea
The blue water
Glistening under the sun
Still
Radiant
Majestic
Yet I know
That that’s not the full story
Because that light blue that I love
Is only a part of it
There are shades
Layers
Darker
Deeper
Hiding secrets
Hiding life
Carrying memories
Carrying anger
Which, when unleashed
Can devour us all
Maybe that’s why I like to sit by the edge
Watching from a distance
Mesmerized
Fearful
Respectful
Trying to fathom
The vastness before me
Sometimes I wonder
How can it be both?
Calming, soothing, constant
Raging, angry, tumultuous
But then I realize
Isn’t that what we are?
We can’t put it in a box
Any more than we can put ourselves
Because to know the sea
To love the sea
You have to embrace every soothing, raging bit of it.

Friday, January 8, 2021

The Monkey Bars

Image from Pixabay

"What are you doing?"

Sonu opened her eyes, breathing heavily. Her brother was standing in front, looking at her in confusion.

Taking a few quick breaths, Sonu said, "Hanging."

"I can see that," he said, rolling his eyes. "But why? You hate playing on the monkey bars!"

But Sonu was in no state to answer. Her breath was coming in shorter gasps, and her face was turning red. And her hands! They were hurting so much! Squeezing her eyes shut, she willed herself to hold on for a little longer. But right then, her hands started slipping, and she had to let go.

Landing on the ground with a thud, she took a second to make sure nothing was broken. Satisfied, she sat down on the sand, catching her breath.

After a few moments, when her breathing finally seemed to come back to normal, she looked up at her brother. He was still standing there, hands on his hips, watching her antics.

"So?" he asked again. "Why were you hanging from the monkey bars?"

Sonu looked away, remaining silent for a few seconds. Finally, she mumbled something softly.

"What?" Bhai asked, looking confused.

Taking a deep breath, Sonu spoke again, this time loudly and clearly. "If I hang from there I'll become taller."

There was silence for a bit, and then her brother burst out laughing. "What?!" he chortled. "That's the stupidest thing I've ever heard!"

Pouting her lips in annoyance, Sonu huffed her shoulders and said, "Shilpa aunty said I would!"

At this, Bhai's laughter died down a bit, though he still looked quite amused. He walked over slowly and sat down next to Sonu.

For as long as she could remember (which wasn't many years ago), she had been the short one. Her parents were tall. Her brother was tall. All her cousins were tall. Even in school, she was the shortest in her class. She was always made to stand in front of the line because of that! In fact, there were many students in the younger classes who were much taller than her.

And every time she complained to her parents, their only response was that 'one day' she would shoot up in height. That one day still hadn't come. Until it came, Sonu was still very much short, as people around her felt the need to point out all the time.

One such person was Shilpa aunty, their neighbour. She would often mention how short Sonu was, and this did nothing to help Sonu's mood. But this time, she said something that caught Sonu's attention. As a passing comment, she mentioned that Sonu should probably hang from a bar, as that was the only other way she would grow taller. In hindsight, she was probably joking, but for Sonu, the idea took root.

At first, Sonu rejected the idea. She hated monkey bars. She could barely hang on to the bars for a few seconds before falling down. She was really jealous of Bhai, who would easily cross over from one end to the other, while Sonu wouldn't even be able to hold on to one bar.

But the more she thought about it, the idea started sounding better and better. She was so tired of being the short one. She was tired of being told by everyone around her how short she was, and then having them look at her with pity. She really, really wanted to grow taller now. So if this idea actually worked, it might be worth a try.

So here she was, hanging from the monkey bars in the playground, huffing and puffing, hoping that those few seconds would at least let her grow a few centimetres.

After a few moments of silence, Bhai looked sideways at her and asked, "Why are you so obsessed with growing taller?"

"Don't you remember the picture?!" Sonu asked, confused that he even asked this question.

Bhai stared at her for sometime, as though trying to remember which picture she was talking about. And then, suddenly, he burst out laughing again.

"It's not funny!" Sonu shouted.

Last month, the whole extended family had gotten together. Before they left, everyone had posed for a full family photograph, with Sonu standing in front. But when the photo was finally developed and brought home, Sonu was nowhere to be seen in it! The photographer had somehow managed to click the picture a little higher than needed; and as a result, had ended up cutting Sonu out of the pic. Everyone else was in it, except her!

After a while, Bhai finally stopped laughing. Looking at his little sister, and the lack of laughter on her face, he asked again, "Seriously. Why does it bother you so much?"

Happy that he had finally stopped laughing, Sonu thought about his question. "Everyone is always saying that I'm really short," she said finally, not sure of what else to say.

"Well, you are," said Bhai. Looking at the angry flash in her eyes, he added hurriedly, "Arrey you are short! But why is that a problem?"

Sonu was about to open her mouth to reply, but she stopped short at the question. No one had ever asked her that before.

"I don't know. All the grown-ups keep saying I should be taller. Maybe taller people look nicer?" she said, trying to come up with an explanation that made sense.

Bhai shook his head slightly, rolling his eyes, and muttered something under his breath. "Listen, I'll tell you a secret," he said softly, leaning in.

Sonu shifted, moving closer, frustration slowly getting replaced by curiosity.

"Grown-ups don't know what they're talking about. Listen to what they say, and then ignore it. Otherwise they'll drive you crazy."

Sonu frowned. This made no sense. Everyone always said to listen to the grown-ups. They were supposed to be the smart ones!

"I'm serious!" Bhai added. "Look, they're always after me not to play out in the sun because then I'll become dark."

"What's wrong with being dark?" Sonu asked, confused.

"Exactly! But who's going to explain that to them?" Bhai said, again shaking his head.

"So what do you do?" Sonu asked.

"What I said. Listen to them, and then ignore them."

Sonu looked at him, still feeling a little uncertain.

"Listen," Bhai said, exhaling strongly. "You want to hang in the monkey bars? Then do it. I'll help you."

Sonu looked at him, thinking, and then finally whispered, "I kind of hated it."

"That's what I thought," said Bhai, standing up and dusting his pants. Sonu kicked his leg softly, annoyed at the sand flying all over her face.

"Come on," Bhai said, ruffling her hair.

"Where are we going?" Sonu asked, getting up to follow him. “To do something that’s actually fun,” he said over his shoulder.

The two walked up to the merry-go-round. Seeing it, a smile began to spread on Sonu’s face. "Do you think this might also make me taller?" she asked.

"Definitely not," Bhai said, as he started to push the bars to make them spin. He raised his eyebrows, as though challenging his little sister.

Sonu looked at the merry-go-round, now spinning really fast, and then at Bhai standing on the opposite end. Finally, making up her mind, she nodded and flashed a big smile at Bhai. "Let's go!"

With that, both of them caught on to a spinning bar on each end, like they had done many times before, and swung alongside, screaming with excitement.

Wednesday, January 6, 2021

New Year, New Me

It happens every year. As another year ends, and a new one begins, the world gets flooded with reflections and resolutions, all hinting towards the same thing: new year, new me.

I know. It can get annoying. There are enough memes making the rounds of the online world to communicate the same. And I don’t blame them.

Resolutions are exciting the first few times. But after years and years of failure, they’re just downright repetitive and annoying.

Or that’s what I like to tell myself.

You see, secretly, I kind of enjoy it. Perhaps not the public declarations of resolutions (because that’s not really my style), but at least, I like the idea behind resolutions.

It’s hope.

Let’s face it. We live in a world that on more days than not, is rather depressing. To add on to that, most of us (at least, I’m hoping it’s most of us) fail miserably at our yearly resolutions, probably within the first few days of January.

Yet as the next year rolls around, we’re at it again.

Why? Are we just idiotic humans who don’t know when to give up? Probably. But I prefer to think of it a little differently; that we’re people who, despite facing failure after failure, somehow find it in ourselves to get back into the rink and give it another try, hoping, that maybe this time will be better than the last.

And that’s kind of inspiring.

Of course, we don’t really need a ‘new year’ to do this, but I think humans like checkpoints. New Year’s. Birthdays. Or, in my case, sunsets. Something that makes you pause, look back at your life, take stock of it, and think for a moment about what it is really that you want. It’s the checkpoint to reflect on ourselves as people, and use the new year as an excuse to try and (hopefully) be better people.

Sure, many of us will fail. Fail badly. But maybe this is one of those things where the end result, as important as it might be, takes a backseat in favour of the attempt.

Where showing up is far more important than winning.